Beloveds and precious hearts,
I wish you all a very beautiful and potent, loving new SOLAR year in the Now moment. I have been away and offline for about 1 month after writing a very honest and open article about my current personal situation. I wanted to share an update with you all as many have been wondering and emailing me. After this personal update I will also share a bit about this current moment, the Super Blue Blood Moon and the energies of January.
I want to express my heartfelt gratitude for the amazing support I have been receiving from you during a difficult time. After my December article I received a tremendous amount of support in the form of donations and emails. I am amazed and still in AWE of how much Love and support was lend to me. The donations that came in have helped me a lot and have allowed me to get through my rough month of December. I was able to breathe and take some rest. THANK YOU all for your donations, emails and support!!! Donations are always and still very welcome as I am very slightly moving, still transitioning through a very deep and difficult pathway. Financial support helps me to worry less and to focus on my health/transformation and have some rest/breather. Inspiration abounds when worries and stress for finances are gone.
December has proven to many that it was a tremendous HARSH time. I have seen more doctors in this month than I have seen in the past 10 years. Physically I have been suffering from some serious conditions, experienced a light heart attack and having all sorts of infections on top of it. It lingered on the entire month and did not improve in any way. For the first time in 10 years I had no other option than to go to the doctor, do some examinations and take in medications. Energy work, healings, alternative therapies did not help. My physical body went over a boundary that was extreme and dangerous. I was obliged to rest and take time off from everything.
At this point I am still climbing out a very deep hole... that is how it feels. My body is slowly getting stronger. And then you have the emotional and mental bodies that are peeling of their layers like crazy.. I feel ripped, vulnerable and empty of all. There is no grip anymore to find. Thanks to the donations I can focus on my health without worrying for finances, which on itself was so healing for me. I am sharing this because I want to be open, many of you will recognize yourself in this. I know what my situation is all about, so please refrain yourself from sharing me your ideas of what this means for me or any type of information/guidance. There is no meaning, it is what it is and I am aware of what this all is to me personally. I am thoroughly working with this and with myself and what it brings.